might seem like a weird idea...but i honestly just thought that as i lie on my couch, belly down, in a sports bra and underwear, staring at my cat and contemplating if i should go on a run...halfway there, just need the shorts...jeez i'm tired!
worked 15 hours yesterday, followed by a drink with coworkers to celebrate our long day, and then passed out immediately upon arrival in my bed at midnight...back to work at 7 am...
so, why am i staring at my cat, smiling that she is teaching me something? well, first of all, because bailey rocks, and i love her to pieces. and she rocks. ha. but also, because she's totally engulfed in her present moment. even when she finds her paw stuck to the carpet and she can't move (which is quite entertaining, by the way), she is absorbed in that fact, grunting and meowing as she tries to get free...
profound, i know...i promise, i'm going somewhere with this. so here's my thought, why, when things get tough, do we tend to look the other way, pretend it isn't happening, pretend we are strong and that nothing phases us? why do we deny that we are stuck somewhere, feeling kinda shitty about it, and wanting to get free? i know not all of us may agree that they approach difficult situations this way, but i definitely do. i immediately take my stance: just push on, stay busy, go, go, go! fix, fix, fix! but, how can i fix something that i'm not even allowing myself to see? so simple of a concept, yet, for some reason, not easy for me to apply.
so bailey gets stuck on the rug, she looks at her paw, feels the frustration of it all, and then corrects the problem. i, on the other hand, get "stuck on a rug", feel the pain of it, then hide that crappy feeling by focusing on something else, sweeping my unmet need under the rug...i'll save that for later...but, oooh, that's going to be NASTY later once it's been under the rug for so long! ha!
so, this brings me back to a few quotes i have been reflecting on over the past few months that, after my encounter with bailey, have taken on new meaning:
the universe gives us all we need to elevate our level of consciousness
find perfection in your circumstances
today, i find perfection in the fact that I am feeling tired, a little sad, and slightly lonely. I do not judge these feelings as bad or good, but as experiences that allow me to better know myself, my needs, and to express those things as my truth as a means to elevate my consciousness. the consciousness i speak of is my connection to the present moment, and, therefore, my freedom from the weight of past and future that i carry as definitions of myself. being present, i am able to see the perfection in my circumstances, accept them, surrender to them, and act from a place of truth.
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