you know that scene in a movie, usually at the end, where the protagonist has finally overcome her struggle and begins anew? The sky clears, the sun shines...maybe a bird is chirping...and you watch the character take a deep breathe, smile, and take in the warm sun on her face. Happily ever after :) aaaah :)
Is it inherent in the character's happiness that she just overcame some powerful evil?? Can you only enjoy the calm when it follows a storm?
It's true in my life that I have found some of my most profound peace after surrendering in a huge struggle. This is actually exactly what started my spiritual journey, this blog, and, ultimately, completely changed my life course. But, what about now? I must say, I feel very steady and grounded in life right now. I have a stable career, i live in a great city, i have great friends, and a loving and supportive family. As my readers may know, my love life is a bit...hmmm...i don't even know (?!), but I surprisingly feel very calm in my love right now...which is wonderful
so, point being, I'm not feeling any major life traumas needing to be surmounted. I don't have any huge storms brewing, and don't feel like I just watched the clouds part...I'm just living my normal life...with a little love drama in the mix to light my fire. Same old, same old ;-) for the most part...
i had a moment this morning, walking to work, when I suddenly felt like I "checked in". i was listening to music, thinking about my night last night, planning my day today...completely out of touch with what i was ACTUALLY doing. and, suddenly, there i was...in an amazingly beautiful ray of sunlight, walking through a park. i caught the eye of a morning dog walker, and their fluffy little mess of a dog...i felt a cool breeze on my cheeks...and the blaze of the sun as it hit my eyes...and i suddenly had this unstoppable urge to smile...and i smiled BIG! it was delicious :-)
where was this BEFORE?! how had I JUST noticed?
it made me think...or maybe, STOP thinking...and just soak up my present moment. for all that it is...for the I AM...my only true self is in this moment and this moment only. and this moment has all that i need and more...at least it does, if i ALLOW myself to see it ;-)
during my last session with maureen, we did a guided meditation into my heart. I allowed my heart to open...and with the images and feelings this created within me, felt more alive than I could have ever imagined. I actually started giggling shortly thereafter...so much joy, I felt like a little kid with a case of the giggles! wonderful :-) through the giggling, I asked maureen, "do people actually live there life from this place ALL THE TIME?!" and, with a startled giggle in response she said, "of course!"
let my practice begin :-) let the giggling begin! let the happily ever after be the happily ever NOW :-)
spreading light and love within and without. happy thursday!
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