this week I am vacationing in Lake Geneva with my family. Family reunions- oh how I truly love them! This year, as the reunion approached, I became so excited to see and spend time with all of my family. We were all excitedly facebooking as the day approached.
Seeing extended family only once or twice a year makes each visit really exciting. But, what about my immediate family? I felt just as excited to see them...because it really had been a while.
An encounter with my mom and my sister helped me realize that I have been very reclusive and out of touch with my loved ones the past few months. Of course, from my perspective, this should only affect me...haha. But, it turns out, I had actually alienated my immediate family...and actually hurt their feelings. When I look back at it now, I can see that I was stuck in my mind, trying to find ways to move on after a long relationship...and definitely NOT surrendering to the now. Yesterday was a hard day for me; but, what started with some frustrated and angry words, ended with some tears and am embrace, and an amazing realization about how surrender actually plays out in my daily life. I woke this morning to an email from my one and only Buddha sister, and want to share it today.
May we always return to our surrender; our connection with god, the one, the source..whatever you may call it...xo
"The word "surrender" is often interpreted as giving up, as weakness, as admitting defeat. Although this is one way to use the word, we will use it in a different way. Surrendering means letting go of your resistance to the total openness of who you are. It means giving up the tension of the little vortex you believe yourself to be and realizing the deep power of the ocean you truly are. It means to open with no boundaries, emotional or physical, so you ease wide beyond any limiting sense of self you might have."
-David Deida
Today, I surrender to the wisdom of my heart. I let go of the need to be right, in charge, in control. I let go of my mind's small and incomplete vision of myself, and open to the source of who I truly am. and all is well...
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