my business, my passion EMBODIED

so, i'm officially starting a business...with all of my free time, right? ;-) ha! but it just IS...and it feels so right. i am partners with my buddha sister, and it's wonderful. i have a folder in my business email address titled "inspiration", and, if you can believe it, it is just about as full as my "website" and "design" folders ;-) sarah sends me inspiration...i swear, it flows like a waterfall from her at all times! so amazing! here's the latest addition to the lumi inspiration folder, enjoy!

Many times we do not give ourselves enough credit for how much power we have over the course of our lives. We outsource the cause of our suffering, grief, anger and resentment to other people, big companies, the government or a Higher Power.

But the truth is this. The way you see the world isn't how the world is - the way you see the world is how YOU are. Since any reality can be created through the power of intention, the life you are currently living and the world you are experiencing today is totally a by product of your thoughts about life.

Choose to believe and act on the thoughts that feel the best (even if, and especially if, they seem unrealistic or impossible). Successful people don't hope or wish themselves into success. NO - they ALL persistently THINK and ACT their way to success.

Get in touch with your inspiration. Think thoughts in alignment with what inspires you. Take action from the thoughts that are in alignment with what inspires you.

Do this daily without giving up and eventually a whole new WORLD will be yours to experience.

"Let Passion Drive your Profession"
-Oprah

Love you Both!

Miss Bliss

Work, money, and life SUCKING

so, the other day, i had this "ah ha" realization that I have always thought work should SUCK. it's so natural for me to believe that, that i honestly had trouble believing any other point of view could exist. does anyone else feel this way??

i have memories of my dad coming home from work, honestly looking like he was beaten up...and then getting up the next day, and going back for more. jeez, how PAINFUL to watch each and every day as a child! he was always a proponent of the idea that "work is hard", "life is HARD", and basically that it all pretty much SUCKS. not ALWAYS, mind you, but just most of the time. and ESPECIALLY if you ever wanted to make enough money to survive...then it was going to be painful...

so, i guess i didn't really think about that much as i grew up until i started working. and, in some cases (like when i worked as a personal trainer at 24 hour fitness, aka hell on earth), it really did seem to fit. I made $22,000 my first year out of college...my god, is a college education only worth $22,000?! i was happy, but i was definitely not feeling confident in my money situation. savings? i had no idea what that was...besides saving credit on my card to buy groceries...oh, and a cat ;-) haha

in this past year, however, i have found myself really enjoying work...i mean really enjoying it. and i'm making a pretty good living. AND, in the past year, i have also pursued other passions, like volunteering for a breast cancer awareness group, teaching yoga, running a marathon, and starting a tshirt company. :-) yay! haha...it really all makes me feel like smiling :-) and yelling "yay!" apparently ;-) but, all joking aside, i really love it all! and somehow it all fits in, and i feel happy as I pursue it all...

this week, however, i had a dead on "straw that broke the camel's back" experience...to a tee. one thing at work went not as planned, and all of the sudden I felt my smile fade, and work started sucking. i mean REALLY SUCKING! i felt like i looked like my dad when i got done with work- worn out and wearied by a painful, long, and unfulfilling day at work. and, just like that, my enjoyment for work crashed to the ground...i spiraled...and i came back to my belief that "work is hard", "life is hard", and pretty much "everything suuuuccccckkkkssss!".

wow, what an effect a belief can have on you! it's almost worth laughing about...! so little changed, but, all the sudden, my entire reality changed. the positive feelings i had about work, and my LIFE as a woman pursuing her career completely faded into a nasty ball of dark icky feelings...i felt pressured to work, pressured to suffer, and pressured to be something for someone else just because...well, that's the way life is, HARD, PAINFUL, and SUCKY!!

well, here's what i say to that: F THAT PERSPECTIVE. i felt it's pull...i sank into despair...but i refuse to let it define me anymore. dad, i love you, but your belief about life is just not suiting me anymore...and i have decided to change it...here's what i came up with:

"it is easy to grow my career and make positive contributions to others by following and doing what i love."

BAM.

May seem simple...but it was like the golden key that unlocked me from my self created prison...and now...i'm BACK. :-)

i CHOOSE this belief. i CHOOSE. :-)

to work, money, and life manifesting my true love :-) yay!

"What you do attests to what you believe."

-A Course in Miracles

lets flip that...

as I strive to re-enter mainstream society and reengage with local, national, and international news, I have found that I am quickly reminded of why I originally boycotted this media. let's take a look at all the heartwarming, positive, and inspirational news I read this AM:

• "wild storm leaves behind damage, injuries"
• "Indonesia tsunami toll hits 343 as bodies found"
• "college tuition costs climbing again this fall"
• "foreclosure activity up across most US metro areas"
• "high exposure to BPA linked to low sperm count"
• "urgent request for Jackson tests"
• "giants rough up Lee for 11-7 win in Series opener"

phew...well, if that wasn't a painful way to start the day, I'm not sure what is! I don't like flooding my body and mind with so many negative thoughts...how did it become normal to spread "news" like this?! isn't there anything GOOD happening that we'd also like to talk about? let's see if I can flip the perspective on these news blasts...bring a smile to my day instead of a heavy, life is horrible feeling...ha!

"wild storm amazes onlookers with our earth's beauty!"

"Indonesian Red Cross brings supplies and hope to people displaced by the tsunami"

"According to the U.S. census, Americans are more educated than ever before, with a greater percentage graduating from high school and college than a decade ago."

"In Illinois, the foreclosure rate is trending down"

regarding sperm, the only thing I can find to say is that a friend recently told me he had "super sperm". this reinstilled my confidence in procreation...but also made me somewhat nervous...ha!

Michael Jackson's awesomeness is celebrated by "rocking" with him

and regarding the giants, this headline actually did not seem that negative...but i would still like to redirect you to an amazing post by a good friend about the giants...it is very well said :-)

http://www.rocket-shoes.com/a-love-letter-to-the-san-francisco-giants/

so with this much improved perspective on daily news, I start my day :-) happy thursday everyone.

blast from the past

probably about one year ago i was watching this girl play the violin, sing seductively, and stomp her feet on a suitcase (her drum section) alone on a stage in chicago...i was immediately in love

talk about two blasts from the past- my ex, who is extremely music culture savvy, sent this to me out of the blue. i guess she's getting some press ;-) i love it

my macrocosm

i saw my grandma today. she is 93 (i think? 94?). what an amazingly small world she lives in. as i contemplate what i am going to write next, i realize it might seem inappropriate to really put it all out there, but just to be straight forward: she has been bed bound for over a year now, wheelchair bound for probably 3 years before that. she is washed in her bed by her caretakers, she eats the pureed food they feed her, she holds washcloths in her hands to protect her palms from her nails as she curls her hands into fists and tucks them under her chin...she can barely see. the last time she was outside of her apartment was probably about a year ago, when my sister and i convinced her to be lifted out of bed and secured in her wheelchair for a stroll to the park.

i can see that this might seem depressing...but it is what it is. i love my grandma...i love that she is who she is, in the moment, right NOW. spending time with her today was amazing in so many ways. she did not even speak or move...but just barely fluttered her eyes open and closed as i told her about what is going on in my life. and, out of pure love, i found the only way i felt i could reach her was by physical touch; i massaged my grandma from head to toe for almost an hour...communicating without speaking. it truly was a life-filled moment, despite all the signs of fading life around us.

my experience with my grandma made me think about my focus over the past few years. just as my grandma lives in a small world, i realized this evening that i have turned inward to my "microcosm"; over the past few years, i have found myself less and less interested in what is going on in the world, and more and more interested in what is going on within MY world. what an interesting turn...

this has shown through in my life in so many ways; i no longer watch television and am almost constantly reminded of my lack of involvement in popular culture (mostly by my friends, who get quite a kick out of the fact that i have no idea who celebrities such as the Kardashians are...and, by the way, i just had to google that to find out how to spell that name; i did not, however, take the time to find out who they are, because i honestly have no idea and really do not care!). my bedside table is stacked with nonfiction books about spirituality, yoga, raw diets, and chakras. i find out about the bears winning or losing while chatting in the OR...i am a yoga instructor...i am a bike commuter and runner...all my own forms of meditation

i've always been an extremely curious person...breaking up with a long term boyfriend, one book ignited my fervor for learning more, and led me on a 2 year journey to where i am today...but, should i have also been concentrating on the larger picture? i know the last 2 years have brought me to a place where i believe that all that i create outside of me comes from within- what a powerful and freeing concept! but, i also live in SOCIETY; a well established way of life exists outside of me...what of that? it seems my curiosity for the world within has detached me from the world without...

i heard a john stewart interview on NPR today (hilarious man, i love him); he was asked to describe the highlight of his career on the daily show, and, in the most serious tone i think i have ever heard from him, he described his coverage of a decision to limit healthcare coverage to officers who had helped during 911 if they were undocumented...his passion for the cause was almost breathtaking. and, in that instant, i suddenly felt this shift...i came home, cooked an amazing dinner with friends, settled in with my computer, and, 2 hours later, woke up from an unexpected, almost exhaustive, search of world news, information about political systems, history...as if i suddenly came out of myself and woke up to the world around me.

i felt like i needed to go back to high school! going into medicine in college, high school seems to be one of the only times i learned about government, history, and the like. the intertwining of government, art, literature, economics, social networks...all creating the evolution we observe around us...how amazingly interesting!

if the power to change comes from within, then the change we see around us is our internal intentions manifested in the world...

i journeyed in to learn how to manifest in my own life...curiosity now draws me to learn what the collective consciousness of the world has manifested in society. what an f'ing interesting concept...let the curiosity take me :-)

i can't claim i will become a justin beiber fan...but maybe soon you'll find me back in society ;-) in my macrocosm...

Welcome october

Local Natives is this weekend...then Ra Ra Riot with barely any time to change gears. so pumped. :-) yay! here are my favorites from ra ra lately. i hope they bring a smile to your face also. and if you're in the chicago area, come to the concert!